“I got that money on my mind but I ain’t blind. I see that if I want it, I have to grind.”
― Jonathan Anthony Burkett
These very words have been my life’s motto for the past few years. I was grinding and grinding until one day I just stopped. I don’t remember the exact date that I actually paused for a moment and realized that as I was grinding away, that I actually had no idea what I was doing all of this grinding for. I mean, I am fortunate enough to have many of the things I want, and lot of the things that I need. By the end of the week I felt like one of those hamsters on a wheel that are going in circles, but yet tend not get dizzy. In this moment I had realized that the bags under my eyes were to deep for any type of concealer to cover. When I woke up in the morning I either always had a headache or a stomach ache, and the thought of actually interacting with other people after 5 pm made me fairly nauseous which would then usually result in me retreating to my bed with my dog to watch reruns of the Twilight Zone on Netflix. I was overworked, uninspired, and lived for Fridays.
After having a quarter life meltdown to my best friend over the phone, telling her my grand plans to run away with my Yorkie and a backpack—I realized that I had to do something, anything to take my life back. I was tired of being tired, I was tired of not being present for Monday- Thursday, and I was tired of the negative vibes that you could smell on me from a mile away. I knew it was time to take action.
This blog is here to document my journey from being someone who took a backseat in her own life, to someone who knew she was meant to be the driver. I plan on showing my progression of becoming one with nature, becoming a better employee, a better friend, and a better partner. I know this will not be easy—from someone who has her PhD in Netflix, I will struggle from time to time—but I want to document that too. My life may not be perfect, but it’s all mine.
So, even if no one ever see’s this, I plan on starting my journey by doing the 42 Days of a Mindful Diet Challenge, which you can find in The Yoga Journal. I will be doing 1 mindful activity per day and sharing my results. Please feel free to join in!