“ Let your thoughts go in and out of your mind, but don’t invite them to stay for tea.”- My Yoga Teacher
Today’s act of mindfulness centers on setting smart— not more— food goals. So, instead of telling you about the cup of unsweetened apple sauce that I ate for breakfast this morning (which would put both of us to sleep), I want to talk about how my relationship with food impacts how I feel about the world.
I have done my fair share of diets. I could probably list those off, but that would put you to sleep as well. The most recent dietary change that I can say that I have been working on has been a Pescatarian diet. This diet consists of not eating meat products, but I do eat fish. I have been on this diet/ lifestyle change for a little over a year. Although, I have stuck to this way of eating, things have not always been easy for me. In the beginning I experienced headaches, nausea, and swift changes in my mood. Every time that I go out to eat with friends or clients, I am the person who is pulling up the menu on her phone hoping that I have something that I can eat. Frankly, up until 2 months ago this change in eating overall made me angry. I was angry at my lack of food choices. I was angry because while everyone has burgers at the barbecue–I loaded up on potato salad, and most of all I was angry because I was not losing weight. Which brings me to the reason on why I started this eating change in the first place. I had originally started changing the way that I was eating for the last 26 years of my life because I wanted to look good in my bathing suit in Miami. Don’t get me wrong, nothing is bad about wanting to look amazing. By Thanksgiving time this year I had enough of having crab cakes instead of turkey, and was debating going back to my old way of eating until—it hit me. I finally decided to slow down and really reflect on the reason I was so angry inside and why I couldn’t shake the negative feelings even through I felt like I was doing everything right. The conclusion I came up with is while I was so focused on having my 6 pack of abs (shoot I’d take a 4 packs of abs at this point), I was doing all of these changes for the wrong reason. I was trying to change my outside appearance without having changed my inside appearance first. I had to shift my way of thinking from just wanting to look “hot” in my bathing suit, to wanting to feel “hot” every single damn day. So in order to get back on track I set up a elliptical, weights, and yoga mat in one of our spare bedrooms and committed to working out 3 times a week at 5AM. I committed to taking 2 yoga classes per week, and I committed to saying one good thing about myself per day. Now I can proudly say that no, I do not have abs like Jillian Michaels, but I am loosing weight. My attitude is peace and calm, and I am starting to feel “hot” one hour at a time, one day at a time.
Here’s to the Wednesday Warriors—Cheers!